tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post2318559331385576808..comments2023-06-03T03:17:12.506-07:00Comments on My Life: Partly Cloudy with a Chance of Crazy: BMI: 20.7. When will I see 19?Phantasmagorical Delusionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17043311310982572393noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-53538418517966071712010-04-22T08:56:22.505-07:002010-04-22T08:56:22.505-07:00I know you were so excited about the Topamax, and ...I know you were so excited about the Topamax, and I know it's been helping a lot with the C&S sessions. But, lately, your posts have seemed so devoid of.... P.D. You're not.... you..... anymore when you're posting. I know Topa has and is being touted on here as the wonder drug, the be-all end-all, the one that everyone wants. But you seemed so much happier when you weren't taking it. Yes, the weight was coming off slower, and yes, you had some problems with the C&Sing. But you at least could FEEL things. Right now, you seem so blank and grey. Have you considered stopping the drug? If you haven't, I would ask that you at least consider it. Drugs all have side effects, no matter how wonderful they are. Even aspirin can cause ulcers, and it seems like the most innocuous drug out there. So Topa has to have some beefy side effects, and I think they are really negatively affecting your LIFE. I want you to be able to enjoy yourself and your daughter, and laugh and post poetry, and swear, and be the crazy P.D. that I met a few months ago. PLEASE consider what I asked, about taking yourself off the Topamax. It might make you feel better.Sottilehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04285015921377549626noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-71309790263400308362010-04-22T07:55:24.377-07:002010-04-22T07:55:24.377-07:00No P.D, A LOT of things mean more than being thin....No P.D, A LOT of things mean more than being thin.<br /><br />We've got to discover what they are, and try our best to recognise them when they're staring us in the face.<br /><br />I shall be presumptuous and list out a few.<br /><br />1. Your beautiful daughter<br />2. Your passion and zest for life<br />3. Your health<br />4. Your love of words. Imagine not being able to describe how you feel or think!<br /><br />I haven't been able to comment as often as I would like to, but I'm still reading and thinking of you.<br /><br />*hugs*Blue Butterflyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06279395732676923857noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-39423612523965460392010-04-22T06:49:38.913-07:002010-04-22T06:49:38.913-07:00This comment has been removed by the author.zenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06868918081542991639noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-21849516985826134892010-04-22T06:16:37.637-07:002010-04-22T06:16:37.637-07:00OMG P.D.
"I've joined you, today. In the...OMG P.D.<br /><br />"I've joined you, today. In the ranks of..."<br /><br />Geesh!<br /><br />Its a club, the... one tnnnhy club. eh?<br /><br />If you don't do it, I will. I mean it.zenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06868918081542991639noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-21728478954413537612010-04-22T06:12:04.955-07:002010-04-22T06:12:04.955-07:00I have given some thought to your thoughtless word...I have given some thought to your thoughtless words Prickface and decided to clear some things up for you and the other ignorant anonymous commentors that have been frequenting P.D's blog.<br /><br />Starvation itself IS a dangerous road. <br />The symptoms P.D is experiencing are signs of danger.<br />Her feelings are valid. <br />Our ED takes over, we are consumed with it. <br />We struggle with the guilt and fear. <br />Often wondering whether we will ever regain control again, or if we will ever want to, before it is too late.<br />In short... unless you actually know something of relevance to the subject at hand, refrain from spewing your venom.<br />Or come visit my blog. I love me a good troll roast.<br /><br />xoxo zen ;)zenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06868918081542991639noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-29451142865074848952010-04-22T05:18:27.067-07:002010-04-22T05:18:27.067-07:00AAAAHAHAHA... Anonymous's are such a constant ...AAAAHAHAHA... Anonymous's are such a constant source of entertainment! <br />What are YOUR stats, hmmm "Prickface"? <br /><br />(love that btw *wink wink*)<br /><br />UPDATE now before I burst P.D. You cannot give me juicy news like that and expect me not to explode from all the pride and excitement!<br /><br />{{zen blows raspberries on your tiny tummy}} <br />ewww? I don't fucking care, deal with it. You are a mommy, you do it all the time! ;P<br />xoxozenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06868918081542991639noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-27462533985818929102010-04-22T03:36:26.000-07:002010-04-22T03:36:26.000-07:00um... you are 20.7
underweight is 18.5
i dont thin...um... you are 20.7<br />underweight is 18.5<br />i dont think you're in any dangerAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-83141863030112831982010-04-21T14:32:50.977-07:002010-04-21T14:32:50.977-07:00Oh sweetie I hope you feel better. I am going thro...Oh sweetie I hope you feel better. I am going through a breakup as well and haven't eaten for 3 days and whirly whirly whirly. Your words are beautiful and touch my heart because I feel that that at times too. Stay strong. We love you. <3Does It Even Matterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04349478248769398883noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-23909753169669358702010-04-21T14:12:10.460-07:002010-04-21T14:12:10.460-07:00Its definitely not worth losing yourself over. But...Its definitely not worth losing yourself over. But I enjoy the dizziness..<br />You need to eat, healthily of course.<br />You need to do the things you love and enjoy life. The things you love mostly involve exercise so you're still gonna be losing.. You cant give up on these things.<br />Hope you're ok. xxSarah.https://www.blogger.com/profile/10507315805817714762noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-78732422293525256052010-04-21T14:01:49.087-07:002010-04-21T14:01:49.087-07:00We all need energy and enthusiasm for life, to con...We all need energy and enthusiasm for life, to continue to live it fully. I do not believe that we, as a community of sufferers, are really living full lives anymore. There is always an ulterior motive for us - how many calories will we burn doing this? Will this help us avoid eating? We become exhausted, irritable, lethargic. And this tells us we are succeeding. Do we really want to succeed? To succeed is ultimately to die. Because we will never truly be thin <i>enough</i><br /><br />Think of your little girl. She needs a mother who is full of life, energy, and love for her. When we deprive our bodies of nutrients, we cannot give that to ourselves, let alone anyone else. <br /><br />My kids have been messed up by seeing me go through this. My 8 year-old thinks it is her fault, that I am cranky all the time, and hopes that someday I might get better. She cries over everything, is hypersensitive. I see she is aperfectionist, just like me. I hope that seeing me struggle through this will help her see that it is not a good way to live, but I also know that it is somewhat genetic, and she has the traits for developing an ED herself. This kills me. I did this. She might have never known what anorexia was. Never had a care in the world.<br /><br />My 1 year-old closes every drawer that is left open, picks up tiny pieces of paper off the floor, freaks out if she can't unload an open dishwaher. OCD before the age of 2 - from watching me clean constantly, to distract myself from the hunger, the pain, the anger. I never saw this happening to them, I only saw myself winning, succeeding, finally becoming thin.<br /><br />Don't let this happen for you and your baby. She is more important than that.warlocksmistresshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09203356196517911385noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-44953288138891093302010-04-21T13:55:20.009-07:002010-04-21T13:55:20.009-07:00I am very sad to see your inner light being snuffe...I am very sad to see your inner light being snuffed out lady. How are you doing in mommy-land? Gotta keep up your energy for her. <b>She needs you!</b><br /><br />I recently cut my dosage in half. You should tweak it till it works correctly.<br />Please consider taking only one pill in the morning. See how that goes. <br /><br />You want to stop binging. <br />You do not want to stop being a person.<br /><br />xoxo zenzenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06868918081542991639noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-30528711889301879282010-04-21T13:48:48.532-07:002010-04-21T13:48:48.532-07:00Be careful, but I agree with you, it is worth it :...Be careful, but I agree with you, it is worth it :) I have that question on my mind a lot too, and I generally decide that it is.Lizhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17489823964919505734noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-35298762714011292112010-04-21T12:08:15.060-07:002010-04-21T12:08:15.060-07:00If there is even one thing in your life that is mo...If there is even one thing in your life that is more important to you or makes you forget about being thin, then I suggest you seek it and cling to it for dear life. Your body does a lot of things physically, and there is only so much you can do about it. The peace of mind or the satisfaction you get from seeing a waif in the mirror is all in your head. All of life is in your head. It's just like the Milton quote I posted not too long ago, "The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven."<br /><br />Don't find yourself doing the latter.<br /><br />-Summerwhat if summer...https://www.blogger.com/profile/06745197837769715801noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-51208539542090655652010-04-21T11:46:58.025-07:002010-04-21T11:46:58.025-07:00i feel like that a lot. our bodies have been gifte...i feel like that a lot. our bodies have been gifted to us for a reason. is the reason destroying it by not giving it nutrients but loving it because of it? or is the reason so we can use it to see how far we can push it? what are we supposed to do with out bodies?<br />"is it worth it?" is a frequent question which is on my mind lately. of course it is. but is it? because if we are honest with ourselves, we really don't know if it is ACTUALLY worth it. are you willing to stop though? i myself am not.<br />hope you feel better soon. and if you really want to, you can always change your mind. personally, i wouldnt judge you for it. uve come a long way. but something tells me you wont...Mia Hollowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01731792639403683962noreply@blogger.com