tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post323835316449193527..comments2023-06-03T03:17:12.506-07:00Comments on My Life: Partly Cloudy with a Chance of Crazy: How am I falling apart right now??Phantasmagorical Delusionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17043311310982572393noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-22517205421089995582010-02-01T23:49:28.814-08:002010-02-01T23:49:28.814-08:00i feel so much hate for my mum. not because of her...i feel so much hate for my mum. not because of her eating disorder, but because she never thought about how it might affect me, because she always thinks about her first and hasn't ever been there for me the way I've need her to be. But you have your daughter on you mind all the time I can tell. You love her, and more than anything else, you're conscious of what affects her and I know you'd be willing to die for her, even to face feeling ugly for her. You'll always be beautiful, you'll always have your daughter, K, and us. Theres nothing left to prove to me, I love you just for loving you daughter the way you do<br />that she and he many people who love you cann be the most beautiful things about you<br />I can only pray that the awful lonliness wanes and the trapped feeling dies. all my love-BlAnChHollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15961963839077238040noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-25135657767902517862010-02-01T16:13:55.050-08:002010-02-01T16:13:55.050-08:00I wish you health and happiness. I wish you balanc...I wish you health and happiness. I wish you balance, in whatever form that is for you. Nothing feels as good as feeling good! And I hope you can live in a way that makes you feel good. <br /><br />Mentally sending you positive energy.<br />Always here for you, doll.Lolahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07479532523366877598noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-60151103502668053612010-02-01T15:57:55.126-08:002010-02-01T15:57:55.126-08:00Dear Phantasmagorical,
You're right, I can...Dear Phantasmagorical,<br /><br />You're right, I can't really help you. I can't make your decisions for you. But I can tell you that <br /><br />1) You are beautiful<br />2) You are amazingly nice and caring<br />3) Your daughter is beautiful<br />and 4) You aren't alone.<br /><br />I wish you could be healthy and happy. And yes, that is what's best for your daughter. But it's not that easy. There is no "off" button. <br /><br />Look at everyone who has commented. You are not alone. You are not alone. You are not alone.<br /><br />Love and hugs,<br />DellaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-47841489939797919672010-02-01T15:05:31.878-08:002010-02-01T15:05:31.878-08:00I wish that I could be there for you, I wish that ...I wish that I could be there for you, I wish that I could be the person that you hug and fall apart to. I am so sorry that you feel so utterly alone when it comes to this. <br />Maybe, just maybe... you could stay healthy instead? Maybe you could eat a little, and exercise a little... and force Ana back into the shadows? Maybe...<br />We all do this for happiness, and acceptance.. and numerous other reasons.. But those exact same reasons are why you shouldn't be doing this. <br />Man oh man you're in a tough spot. I wish that I could just help you out... Email me I have both MSN and Yahoo - I prefer msn.. my email is the one on my blog skinbonesbeautiful@hotmail.com.. Send me your MSN name and I'll add you.<br />Chin up hun. <br />xoSBBhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00336807377732042637noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-78374069049010673432010-02-01T15:00:32.438-08:002010-02-01T15:00:32.438-08:00I wish I had the answers to give you.
A simple sol...I wish I had the answers to give you.<br />A simple solution that would make everything okay.<br />But I dont.<br />And I dont think there is one.<br />Life is too amazingly beautiful for that.<br /><br />Your daughter is beautiful, and so are you.<br /><br />Keep fighting.<br />Its your choice as to what you fight for,<br />but everyone should fight for something.<br /><br />Fight for your daughter.<br />Fight for K.<br /><br />Or fight for yourself.<br />The little bit of sanity that Ana brings.<br /><br />From the outside it may seem selfish to pick the latter, but really, its incredibly hard not to.<br /><br />You are strong. <br />You can do whatever you choose to do.<br /><br />Love, AndyAndyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12063002133688570221noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-88488890869956958442010-02-01T12:51:10.273-08:002010-02-01T12:51:10.273-08:00I wish I understood all of this. The drive, the p...I wish I understood all of this. The drive, the pain, the joys, the battles....it is all so mixed up when you have an ED. I agree with Sarah, the problem is "how the fuck do you stop it"? I wish I had something to tell you that would make it better but I haven't eaten a thing all day and I'm feeling proud as hell of myself for that.<br /><br />Just know that you are not alone. We are all in this together.<br /><br />Hold on.<br /><br />xox,<br />AAfricanahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04376637152395042588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-46719761083661039562010-02-01T12:43:17.995-08:002010-02-01T12:43:17.995-08:00I don't mean to guilt you. Guilt is a driving ...I don't mean to guilt you. Guilt is a driving factor in eating disorders. But it must be said that I am the child of a woman with binge-eating disorder. I know she loves me; that has never been in doubt. But other than her love, my mother's legacy to me has been an obsession with weight and a depression that I can't shake. It takes a toll.<br />My mother and I suffer together, each of us pretending we're fine, trying to hide our problems from one another.<br />I wish for you to be healthy. I wish for your little girl to be healthy.<br />If you need me, I always check my email and my blog comments.<br />Much love and many prayers,<br />-----.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7277553609750988644.post-2242823767687618112010-02-01T12:26:29.378-08:002010-02-01T12:26:29.378-08:00Don't you hate that horrible feeling of being ...Don't you hate that horrible feeling of being pushed two directions. One to get skinny and follow your ED and two to be at a size you may not be happy but live a life without ana and be happy. I think this is one of the things that nearly every single person with an ED faces at one point or another. Do I continue this or not. The problem is though, it's not so much the problem of continuing, more how the fuck do you stop it. My ED obsessions are now so strong I can't turn them off and have now been going strong for 4 1/2 years. It sucks. I don't know if I can every be 'normal'. I am fighting it but I don't want to be fat either. The photo of your little girl is so cute and is that you in the second pic? You two look so happy together. Hang on to that. I am thinking of you. I have been in your place (not with a child but with my partner) and so I know how hard to is to deal with those opposing thoughts and it just hurts so much. *hugs*<br />SarahSairshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09110575221596955775noreply@blogger.com