Saturday, November 7, 2009

They say there's no magic pill...

Not much to report today, I suppose, other than the fact that I've officially decided...I think... :P... to stop taking my diet pills, after this bottle is finished. I've been taking diet pills (various types for multiple reasons, often mixing different kinds to achieve what I perceived to be the best possible effect) for over a year now, and yet haven't seen any lasting changes I can attribute directly to their use. It started with Slimquick, which I thought worked pretty well until I tried some others. Slimquick does what it says, and does it without giving you the jitters in the slightest. It's also relatively affordable as far as diet pills are concerned, so there's a plus. I dabbled a bit with a lot of little no-name brands, finding that most of them caused side effects that didn't even come close to outweighing the benefits. Hydroxycut seemed to have great appetite suppressant potential, but that quickly faded after about a week or so. Still, it seemed to effectively decrease water retention so I continued to take it, but soon discovered that it either contributed to depression all on its own or it simply negated some of the effects of my antidepressant in some way... Either way, I felt horrible on it. I stopped taking that with about ten doses left in the bottle. More recently, I tried Jillian Michaels' Fat Burner (yes, because it was new and promised all kinds of awesome results...and she looks great, and I let myself fall for that, so...lets us just go ahead and move on :P) but it didn't work nearly as well as I'd hoped. Same basic story, a little caffeine to give you a boost and some fat binders similar to those present in other products like Alli, but nothing as potent as that so as to actually show any major results. The caffeine in any given supplement is almost worthless to me, as my daily caffeine/ginseng/guarana/stimulant intake is so ridiculously high that it takes a pill of prescription strength (or about three of those 5-hour energy shots) to actually get me that same boost. Heh, I always have to laugh a little bit when I hear someone say something like, "Oh, I'm so tired, I need my caffeine fix... Lemme go grab a Diet Coke." lmao... I'd drink a case and a half before I'd feel anything, if I even enjoyed drinking soda of any kind. At any rate, the ONE supplement I've continued to buy and take religiously before nearly every meal for the past three months or so has been Ripped Fuel 5X by TwinLabs. The appetite suppressant factor was, naturally, more noticeable when I first started, and I have since then increased the dosage myself to adapt to my changing needs. Thing is about this one is that it really does what it promises when it comes to helping build lean muscle mass and *preserving* it once it's there. Not only that, but as far as I can tell, it does do a good job with the fat loss as well. Granted, I have incorporated more cardio into my workout than ever before, and I'm sure that helps out a ton...but I just love the results I've seen with this combination (in addition to my odd eating habits, of course...I'm sure that has something to do with my success). I love looking in the mirror and seeing those shadows, slight but strong lines of definition running down the sides of my calves, my thighs... My arms look fantastic, and I've done very little resistance in the past few months.

So why would I stop, you may ask? Well, for one, they cost money and I don't have much of it these days. Secondly, I have this theory about how these chemicals work in conjunction with my already effed up brain chemistry, my hormones, and my other prescription drugs. I don't necessarily feel like getting really in depth with it at the moment, but if you're curious, you can check out common side effects of women with too much testosterone in their bodies...Yeah, not too great. Sure, there's the muscle-gain/fat-loss aspect of it... but then there's the boob-shrinkage/random-but-persistent acne/mood swings issue as well. Dunlikethatatall. Nope. No thank you. And now, with the addition of Strattera into my arsenal, I think I'll be all set on the appetite front for a good while. That shit is NOT messing around. One fifth of a pill is enough to keep me free of food cravings for a good few hours, and I know from experience that an entire pill will do the same thing AND make me feel like I've immediately embarked on an all-out meth binge for at least three days... Being hungry would be the furthest thing from my mind. So. I'll experiment with that until I get to see the psychiatrist next week and see what he says. Naturally, I more than likely won't be sharing my disordered eating habits with him...well, maybe. Depends on how I'm feeling that way. To let on about any other mental instability than what is currently on trial (ADHD, in this case) would probably prove to be a mistake... You know, they're wary of giving out drugs to just anyone, especially individuals who could potentially use said drugs for another use than their prescription advises.

ANYwho... I should be going. It's a beautiful day out...if I can just get the little one down early enough I may have a chance to get a little running in today. That would be fanDAMNtastic.

Be well.

1 comment:

  1. this is pathetic.

    eat some fucking food and stop being a failure of a human being.

    think of this, if you believe in evolution..
    Think of every one of your pertinent ancestors, millions of them, everyone of them has grown up, been attractive enough to find a mate, healthy enough to reproduce and caring enough to raise their child to do the same thing..

    Your genes have been endorsed by the millions of ancestors you have had before you. Your genes didn't break, you're totally capable.

    Now the line gets to you, and you're so overwhelmed and emo that you do this to your body? clearly, you're going to die, or damage your body so badly that and child you could miraculously have would be severly damaged because of it.

    Smarten up, and stop failing at life.