Before you ask, yes...This IS, indeed, a pro-ana blog. I am a diagnosed sufferer of ED-NOS, as my habits are equally anorexic, bulimic, and binge eating disordered in nature. Not a thing I write here should be taken as anything but my own perceptions, opinions, and random thoughts. This is just me, in all of my (un)happiness and disarray and confusion and dedication and insanity. Enjoy.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Mini binge...second night in a row. wtf?
656.
Had some more clementine oranges and an apple all sliced up with cinnamon and ginger, thrown in a little cranberry juice and boiled over medium heat for a few minutes...Like a delicious apple-orange-cranberry pie...without the crust. Then another rice cake.
656. No exercise today. Not yet, anyway. Still time, of course, but the boyfriend is taking a late nap in the room where the elliptical is. So.
I think I'll round up to 700 to be safe. This evening feels a lot like yesterday. Hopefully I won't feel the intense need to eat something like steamed carrots and peas at 9 PM. That was a little fail.
I grow weary of trying so hard. This happens every so often. Then I either look at some amazing thinspo online to remind myself of why I try so hard...or I look at my own disgusting reflection and...remember why I try so hard.
The little one requires my immediate (and possibly prolonged) attention.
Be well.
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