Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Mmm...Now that's some bangin' coffee...

I'm sorry for not updating earlier than this. It seems that we're all booked up as far as lunches and social appearances and scheduled fun for the little one.

In case you were curious, I made it through all of 23 hours of my first fast. I ended it with a cup of green beans (they're all I could think about ALL day long...) and a salad with no dressing, just some worcestershire (about 5 cals per serving). I don't think I've ever eaten green beans more delicious. Garlic pepper and onion salt. Steamed. They were...amazing. I gave in (as I'm apt to do) right before bed and ate a friggin' 100 calorie Quaker granola bar. Still left off at approximately 300 calories. I'm pretty happy with that. A whole day of not eating. I did it. I can do it. I'll do it again.

Not yet, though. Today, I'm giving my metabolism a break from starvation and getting back to my 1,000 cal a day plan for a bit. Today, I'm already up to about 700, and it's 3:44...I'm not sure how I feel about that. We went to La Fogata, a Mexican place, for lunch today. I checked out the menu before we even left the house to plan out what I'd eat, of course. You walk into a place like that and all you see and smell is cheese. Baking cheese. Heat lamps over simmering, shimmering, greasy cheese. And fried tortilla chips. And REfried beans. Enchiladas. Tacos. All of them smothered in disgustingly fatty sauces and toppings... NO thank you. I worked too hard yesterday (fast) and today (cardio) to screw it all up for something so temporary as Mexican food. :P

I had grilled shrimp and vegetable kabobs. No cheese, sour cream, guacamole, chips, beans, tortillas, or rice anywhere NEAR me. Brought my total to about 500 for the day, including oatmeal and apple and (yikes) four bites of a pancake this morning. Then I came home, had one Clementine orange (20), half an apple...and a cookie. That ONE cookie was not worth it. It was 46 calories. For one square inch of butter, flour, and sugar? Not even any chocolate in that thing. Not worth it. Won't make that mistake again.

My elliptical activity this morning totaled out at about 300 calories burned. That was just enough to cover the pancake and the oatmeal, so I was satisfied.

So. Yesterday's fast was a success. That's a good feeling. I weighed myself this morning, and it was back down to 132, just as I had hoped. The binge from the previous two days has been erased. NEVER...again. Ugh. It feels like the uncontrollable glutton that scarfed down all that holiday food was an entirely different person...She certainly wasn't me. Doesn't feel like it, anyway.

I wanted to thank all of you very much for reading, as well as for your support and well-wishing while I fought my way through my very first fast. :) I see it as a definite beginning to a new era for my ultimate plan to reach my goal weight... 127 by January 26th... then 122 by the end of February... easy enough. Yes, I'm taking it relatively slow, by Ana's traditional standards. But I have to be careful...especially now, as my daughter is becoming more and more observant every day. Chewing and spitting may not be an option when she's at home anymore...she noticed my napkin the other night and nearly (audibly) pointed it out. I can't have her giving me away like that, inadvertently as it may have been.

Ah well, I've written enough for now. I'm sorry if this entry was totally boring. :P All the same, I felt compelled to post an update, for those of you who were curious.

I wish the best to you all, and as always...stay strong; stay beautiful.



  1. Congrats on your successful fast! That's awesome. I'm really thankful that we don't have a really good Mexican resturant near where I live because it would be a huge temptation!
    I've never done a chew and spit - I don't think I'd want to spit lol.
    I think it's a great idea to do this gradually so that you set a good example for your daughter and she doesn't out you =P

  2. Ooooh those green beans sound good! I will try them with garlic powder and onion salt tomorrow! Brilliant :)

  3. Omgosh and I wanted to say that I absolutely loved your tat thinspo - nothing is better than skinny sexy bodies with NICE ink!
    And... your lowest weight photos look amazing! What weight was that?

  4. Nice job on the fast! I've never completed one :(
    BUT I have restricted as low as 200 a day and I think the starvation makes the food taste SO much better! I really think it enhances the overall taste and quality of food when we've been heavily restricting.. mmmmm...

  5. Aww, I'm so very proud! I wish I had control like that. It's hard for me to say no to food, but I'm hoping to change that after this fast.

    It's weird, I can't say no to food after I've already taken a bite.. but when I start fasting, I could go for DAYS as long as food doesn't touch my lips.

    Good luck, it sounds like you're doing great. :]