This post may or may not bore you to DEATH...Probably.

I'm considering [trying to] going back to weighing myself once a week again. I did that for a little while...but it drove me insane. I couldn't stand not knowing, at all times. But because we're women (well, most of us...No male discrimination from me!), our weight is bound to fluctuate here and there, some of us experiencing it more than others. There are a few of us, it would seem *cough* Sottile! *cough* who can see a pretty consistent drop from day to day, from morning to evening... Lol, you KNOW I adore you, girl. ;) I just know that with MY body, I can wake up at 135, drink a couple glasses of water and have a slice of apple, and weigh in at 140 by 6 PM. I'm serious. It's insane.

This is why I'm thinking it would be best for my sanity to weigh only once or twice a week, and then average that, maybe, after a month, to assess my progress. I realize this is an entirely radical idea, and that it very well could fail, falling flat on its face before I even give it a fair chance, just because I'm ridiculously impatient and tend to jump to conclusions FAR too quickly in any/every situation. Example: "Wait...what? 136.8?? OMG, I am getting fucking obese, I had better just give up now and eat a fucking smorgasbord of donuts, cinnamon rolls, and kolaches for breakfast because all hope is CERTAINLY lost, if I restricted and still GAINED..."

ComPLETEly illogical, yes. That's me, in the shell of a nut. And you know? I'm okay with it. It's just the way I roll. Cinnamon style.

I'm...retarded...

Umm...what else... So yes, I consumed approximately 650 calories this morning for breakfast alone. I then decided, after having worn my heart rate monitoring chest belt thingie since 7 AM and seeing that I'd already burned 587 by 11 AM, that I can still come out ahead by the end of the day, as long as I don't continue to eat like it's my job. I have to be VERY careful. As you ALL know, a bad start to any day can very quickly and very easily turn into a day-long binge fest, should you let it. I have to keep in mind my goals, my strength, the ability to resist and starve and how WONDERFUL it feels to be hungry and dizzy and lightheaded in my perfect emptiness. Like a balloon...except not a big, round fat balloon. More like one of those long skinny ones they use at kids' birthday parties to make weiner dogs and stuff.



Okay, so that's not a very flattering thought, either. Not at least when I'm comparing MYSELF to it.

And I can't help but share *these* with you now, since I found them in my image search and found them riotously entertaining:


Soooooo... odd...

SOOOOooooOOOO cute!!!
Moving on...

Moving on to what, though? I mean, honestly? All of the things that are jumbling around and bouncing in circles in my head seem so trite and boring and mundane...I feel like I haven't been reading nearly enough of your postings, my lovelies. I shall go do that now. I will tell you, though, that your comments totally make my day, every day. Seriously. I check my email all excitedly, awaiting new comments, like a five-year-old running down the stairs on Christmas morning (except that we never had stairs cuz we always lived in a trailer or something, umm...so...Whatever. I can pretend and SO CAN YOU! :P)

I wanted to take a picture for you today, but I probably look like trash. You wanna see anyway? Hmm... Lemme see if I can't get one. You can see how I look without a shower, hastily applied makeup thrown on my face, all after walking through the rain for fifteen minutes on my way to a class that starts too early for a mommy who can't get a certain toddler from waking her up multiple times for no apparent reason... I wince at the run-on-iness of that sentence...Bad English major, Bad P.D.! :P



And there you have it. That's me. RIGHT NOW. Ha...That's me wanting a bagel cuz I'm sitting RIGHT outside the stupid bagel shop at school. Highly suggestible. Good thing my stomach is so angry with me for eating earlier that it's fighting my mind with a heavy feeling of nausea. Take that, fucking Binge Monster!

Umm...Bye?
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