Saturday, January 2, 2010

Laxative hell...

...well then. I won't be taking any more ex-lax for a few days. Ugh. Seven at once??... Stupid. Lesson learned.

So I took some photos of myself today. Part boredom, I suppose, but I find that the mirror tells a different story than the camera lens does. No, I'm not crazy. It's true.

In taking pictures and looking at myself from a different angle, I see that I'm not the utterly disgusting creature of obesity that I spend most of my time thinking I am. I can also more clearly see exactly where the majority of my efforts should be concentrated...and I can see that there is, indeed, much more work to be done. Months worth. Years, even. But is long, right?

I thought I'd post some of them here for your consideration. Comments are not required, of course, but the ones you leave are certainly appreciated, and taken to heart, whether they be encouraging or critical. Honesty is always the best policy. :P

Thanks again, lovely ladies, for all that you are. Stay strong, stay beautiful... Think thinly. ;)



  1. wow. you look so amazingly thin! really! I am honest and say that I would have tought of you as being *bigger* with being 5`6.5 and 132 lbs-are you really not wayyyyyyy less? O.O
    Cause u really look like 120 in these pics!=)

  2. Hello, ribs and hip bones. :) And your legs are so very long! It's amazing to see how thin you are, compared to myself. We are about the same weight but I am much, much shorter. Anyways... keep up the hard work! <3

  3. Your bones. : )))

    And thank you so much for your comment, it really means a lot. : ) And I relate to what you're saying so much, that having Ana's voice control my thoughts SO much actually made me end up binging and purging more... so ironic but completely true. I think it certainly is possible to want to improve yourself without all the self-hatred. It doesn't make you a bad person to think you're a good person. : ) And I really hope that we can both start to love ourselves. : )

    I would post something more thoughtful but I'm on the phone and I'm having trouble concentrating! Haha sorry but once again thank you so much for your comment, I'm glad my post helped you. : )

  4. Your figure is fantastic. Seriously.
    And you're a mother as well. You must be quite a phenomenal lady :)
    all my love
    Ophelia xx